Love and Gas!

2011-05-07T08:29:00.002+05:30

We came back home and kissed. A quick lunch later, we put our feet up to rest. One half of the bed was tired, lumpy and crumpled. The other half was a little too crisp, too restless and jumpy. The contrast perhaps a manifestation of the variety of emotions. With something like this staying balanced is like walking on a tightrope; emotions sway wildly from one end to the other, like a malfunctioning metronome. I know there are several challenges yet to come. Pain, as I have come to learn, is inevitable. I am sure there will be ups and downs, triumphs and shortcomings still to come - no more day dreaming about frolicking on meadows in the summer, thank you very much. After all, with something this huge, it pays to be realistic.

Still, there's something about the destination. Perhaps, it's not where it is or what it implies. Perhaps it's simply because the wheels are in motion. That there is a goal, that status quo is broken.

After several blank pages, there are words and lines starting to form again. Being human, we resume, curious again about how the book ends.

2010-12-30T11:21:00.002+05:30

I thought it was "Those three words are said too much, then not enough... ", which was pretty much the high point of my drive to work. And then I just had to go do a Google search and check out the lyrics. Turns out it actually was "Those three words are said too much. They're not enough". Boring! I hate the internet. Want to go back to the days of audio tapes and headphones that covered both ears and most of my hair.

2009-09-10T15:16:00.002+05:30

A crippled dog or a graceful flamingo?
Just a matter of perspective, my friend.

2009-05-16T17:15:00.003+05:30

A sprig of parsley in my hot chocolate.
A unique blend; several different drinks being poured out of the same machine. Hundreds of individual minds with their individual tastes forced to choose between the same 5 buttons. Their individual tastes influenced by their individual moods. Their moods influenced by all the little episodes in their life so far. Of triumph and defeat. Of desires fulfilled and otherwise. Their moods conditioned to an insane extent by the way they are expected to live their lives. Their moods influencing the choice of drink as much as the choice of drink influencing their moods. The hot chocolate is now merely chocolate, and the parsley continues to float defiantly.
The bright green dot announces itself with a loud pop as I sip the chocolate and pretend to taste the parsley and enjoy the blend.

2009-03-03T20:00:00.002+05:30

One (more) reason it works between us:

She: lol

sh, awk... you sed it

A zillion points for you.

2008-11-24T00:50:00.004+05:30

I feel so old.
So cold.
I feel
Alone.
Helpless.
Dejected.
Vain.
Insignificant.
Charming.
Horny.
Impotent.
A wreck.
Flatulent.
Restless.
Like dancing.
And cowering in a corner.

But the one thing I don't feel...
Is lonely.
And for that I am grateful.

2008-11-01T12:15:00.008+05:30

A mind storm, space truckin', helter-skelter
Cellophane flowers and lemon trees
A crazy train, a magic carpet ride

Open your eyes, you're out of control
Under pressure, act naturally

Hush, let it be, I'm so tired
Dream on alone on the hill

It's all right now
Numb.

- An anonymous worker in Richard Cory's factory.

2008-07-17T16:01:00.003+05:30

(I'm shamelessly copying this from an earlier post of mine, but as pointed out by a friend this post really belongs here.)

Laurels were only meant to decorate your head, but you expect to ride on them all your life. Lovemaking to you is an achievement. The blocky angular plastic world around you has left its mark in your head - its jagged edges continue to hurt you from within. You smile just so people will not bother you with their concern, your life simply ticks by the sound of bugs crackling on the bug killer. While your hand curls up yet again to give you empty pleasure, and while the world momentarily fades out, giving you one moment of clarity, one moment to move up to the ceiling of the room and see yourself as you are and be free of all the hazy lights and the screens and the unbearable noise, you consider giving it all up. That's the only way. Clear and delightfully simple.

A moment later you are washing your hands, and all the years of filth come back inside you, and you fear the clarity once again.

2008-06-26T23:09:00.002+05:30

We were on a train journey back from Goa. The three of us. We had shared some good times, shared a few details of our lives with each other.

We got down from the train with not a worry in the world, on to one of the smaller stations the train had stopped at. There was a small crowd gathered on one side of the platform. But of course we went and poked our heads in amongst the onlookers. It was a gambling game, a game simple enough to understand upon but one glance: three cards, one being an ace, were first displayed and then shuffled around face down. All you had to do was guess which one of the three was the ace, post-shuffle.

I know what you're thinking... Well, of course it was rigged, but the false and utterly conceited notion that we could outwit those uneducated con-men ensured that we fell right into their trap. I remember how strongly I urged my friend to place a 500 rupee bet and that too twice! Of course I couldn't in the end see through what they were doing, and of course we lost our money. I did pay my friend my fair share of the losses, but I'll always remember how stupid I felt. How helpless. How humiliating, the experience of being fooled, in bright daylight, even when we knew what we were getting into.

I had to swallow and bury this little incident. I told no one unless I absolutely had to. We all have such memories, don't we? Ones that still bring back such strong emotions in us that we get min-choked into silence. Ones that sting just as strong. Ones we want to forget and we can't.

Still, we do what we can to make sure we don't make the same mistake. Don't give ourselves the chance to feel like that again. And in the process create barriers. Iron fortresses of defense. Which our minds can run into, with everything we need. All except some light. Incidents like the one I just described and others have not made me less gullible. All they have succeeded in doing is make me feel so.

And I noticed that there are people who are so skeptical and paranoid about everything and everyone that they often miss something that they needed to hear. Grimacing, they tend to analyze what they hear to no end, because they think they know best. They wish to take everything with a pinch of salt, but more often end up with just a whole lot of salt!

I still don't consider myself old enough to have stopped learning. I'll absorb all I can get, understand where the words are coming from and what they might mean projected onto my little world. I know I'll be fooled enough times in my life whether I am careful or not. At least this way I'll learn a little more.

2008-05-07T02:33:00.002+05:30

She opened my eyes.
I came, I saw, I did not conquer. I watched.
I saw the landscape from the hill.
But I still sit on the hill alone, glass in hand, watching.

I see no difference in what I see.
Through the glass or without.
Surely I think I'm smarter than that.
Only I'm not.
And all that's real to me is the grass.
And the glass in my hand, alone.

2007-09-24T17:53:00.000+05:30

I was brooding over how the meaning of comedy has changed over the years, only to discover to my further brooding (broodance? brood?) that Douglas Noel Adams had done it years earlier. In an article he wrote in 2000, he described a time when a stand-up comic cracked this joke:

"These scientists, eh? They're so stupid! You know those black-box flight recorders they put on aeroplanes? And you know they're meant to be indestructible? It's always the thing that doesn't get smashed? So why don't they make the planes out of the same stuff?"

While the audience roared with laughter, Adams sat uncomfortably. He thought he was being pedantic in thinking that the joke was absurd because it was scientifically unreasonable - was it obvious to only him that the material used to make those black-boxes would render the plane too heavy to fly? He then settled on the realization the joke to an extent relied on ignorance. It made him wonder if he was cracking ignorant jokes too. Whether jokes that seemed funny to him were simply because he was missing some knowledge that was otherwise commonplace? And then he realized humour itself was changing.

Moving away from this tea-infatuated man on stilts, I realize that we're seeing much the same phenomenon on Indian TV. If I try to draw a parallel to American Sitcoms, one series alone holds fort, being well capable of defending all of American humour. And it often starts with a balding psychiatrist going "I'm listening". But in India, post the Great Indian Laughter Challenge (GILC), things have just one from bad to worse (Q: What did the Gujju say to the singing prostitute? A: "You are going from bed to verse!". But I digress).

To be honest GILC itself was a great show - it spawned a new industry really, and clearly although all contestants were not all equal, it did provide a pedestal for some talented people to show off rather unique skills. But GILC brought with it a new interest in the public for humour, and the TV sitcoms and shows that followed have changed the definition of humour. Not to say that the humour is bad - it's appealing in its own sort of way. Rather than relying on clever allusion or intelligent satire, this humour relies on comic timing and slapstick. But there is not an inkling of genious in it, not a smear of greatness. And every time I revisit the television (this generally happens when I visit home) after weeks of watching and reading the likes of Python and Adams, I pretty much spend my evenings laughing half-heartedly while the show has everyone else in guffaws. I dare not say I felt the way Adams felt watching the stand up comedian; I do not share his comic genious. However, I did share the feeling of a being in an alien world. Pretty dramatic, you would say - it's just a few jokes, for heaven's sake. Well, to you I only have this to say:

A: Knock Knock!
B: Who's there?
A: The interrupting sheep.
B: The interrupting sh...
A: Baaaa!

Go figure, while I walk away with the look of an intellectual.

2007-08-19T14:09:00.000+05:30

These strips really are brilliant. That's one thing I think I severely lack as someone who's tried his hand at comic strips - using shared experience effectively. Something PhD comics, Calvin and Hobbes and xkcd all use very effectively.

In case anyone's remotely interested, I watched Aeris die too and did finish the game, by the way. Oh, and Rinoa - wayyhay better than Aeris, guys! I know none of my friends will really get this strip. It's about time you learned the wonder of RPGs, you little Sephiroth-spawns.

2007-08-19T13:37:00.000+05:30

"Apparently God didn't consider cynicism when he gave us rays of hope..."
- Arjun Karande

"Why does melodrama have 'mellow' in it?"
- Arjun Karande

"When it's getting late, it mostly already is."
- Arjun Karande

Man, I think I should consider other professions.

2007-08-17T17:55:00.000+05:30

I think I'm pregnant. I have this craving for lime juice suddenly...

In other laments, why do some people in India try to use English when they clearly can't? It's perfectly OK to be good at your native language and be proud of it, I would want to believe. Yet, even in the remotest corners of India, you'll find big sign boards in English when more than half the population around those parts cannot and doesn't care to understand what they say. Very strange.

This, of course, is totally unrelated to the situation in my house. We are a Maharashtrian family employing two Tamilian maids who converse in Kannada with each other in our house so that we can understand them too. Now that's just the beauty of India - why discard all that for English? In my defense, I blog in English because unfortunately it's the language in which I can best express myself. But that's what everyone else should do - use the language they can express themselves best with. That depends on the listener as much as the speaker, of course. Which brings me to the next paragraph.

Given that my company is American which has employees from all over India and visitors from beyond, I do cut the staff here some slack. So instead of protesting when I see their deformed notices and signboards, I just take a few photos and smile. Once in a while someone comes up to me and asks (in English of course) whether there's something wrong with the signboards. I say "Kaadu" and walk away.

Here's today's catch:

The first is our feedback register for the company's canteen. Apparently, Bock was fed. They just wanted to make sure you knew that.

And then, I was glad to know that when the company bathroom is under maintanse, we are duly informed. Why it is dangerous to enter the bathroom while it is under maintanse, I'll never know, though.

Cute skull huh?

2007-08-13T01:18:00.000+05:30

On the way back from Jayanagar in an auto rickshaw - I was amused at how easy it was to find beauty in the smaller things. How at one point of time in the bigger scheme of things, you let yourself drown into the smallest of details - the way her fingers fold into yours; that single lock of hair that dangles down seperate from the rest; that wonderful smell of hers; that wonderful smile of hers; just how smooth and flawless her skin is.; the warmth of her hug; the way she shows she doesn't want to let you go at the end of the day, because there's never a tomorrow...

I understand now what great lovers meant when they said they could write epics about a single eyelash of the one they loved. I understand now, because I often find myself painting visual poetry in my head. I find myself smelling her in my mind, holding her close again, watching her smile. And smiling back.

Yup, I'm fucked up.

2007-07-26T12:34:00.000+05:30

You really know it's the end when someone ends a conversation with, "...and hey, do keep me updated!' :-)

2007-07-16T17:12:00.000+05:30

Mistakes made since the last blog entry:

1) The geek-slip: Pebbles, Bangalore

Moderately hot lady: Hmm, what was that place we went to the last time I was here? Was it X-Bar? Hmm no, maybe it was... no, I think it was X-Bar, yes.
Me: Why don't you just say you didn't go to X?
Lady: Huh, what?
Me: You know... X-Bar. With the dash on top? Never mind.

2) The wiseass foot-in-mouther: Amazon, Hyderabad

Vice President: Let's go out drinking some time. What would be a good crowd to take along?
Me: Oh, the only other drunkard is that guy .
VP: Drunkard .... ?

3) The 'Self degradation is the best degradation' syndrome: this blog entry!

2007-06-27T18:50:00.000+05:30

Because I've been stuck on the song, my GTalk status message since yesterday has been "I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain coming down on a sunny day?".

And since then I've gotten more than one friend telling me they haven't in a while, and good that they haven't because when it rains on sunny days it means ghosts are getting married. Hilarious.

मेरा भारत महान!

2007-06-25T17:06:00.001+05:30

I'm shamelessly borrowing the wit of another human being for this post. This is something we guffawed at for a while in the office. Of course, I'm not giving out full names to protect the identities of those involved, not to mention my rear end. Here goes...

Background:
There's this new joinee Kedar who landed himself, thanks to yours truly, a rather simple first project where he had to change the signature in our document templates from the previous VP of Operations to the new VP - Allan Lastname. Now, we weren't sure what designation to put under the signature, and Kedar of course wanted that clarified (these things are important when legalities are involved). So, being the *ahem* good mentor I am, I jotted down the correspondence for him. Except, instead of Allan, in a sudden fit of unforced mental randomization, I wrote down Andrew. The smart mentee of mine noticed this and changed the name back to Allan, except he didn't do that in all places. Not all that smart after all, huh? (I'm one to talk!) Anyway, the end result was this:

"Please indicate what designation needs to go along with the signatures where necessary. For Allan Lastname, I'm thinking of using 'Andrew LastName, Vice President'."

Crisis:
Needless to say, this was a hilariously tragic error that was both preposterous and illogical at the same time, and we never noticed it until Allan replied:

"Vincent and Michael will keep you correct on the title. I would suggest we do not use Andrew Lastname as indicated. Two points on this, first that is my uncle and he has been dead for a long time and therefore unlikely to be interested! Second, it is not my name.. Just wondering, where did you get the idea to use Andrew?"

Thanks for that sense of humour Allan. We heartily laughed at ourselves today!

2007-05-24T12:33:00.000+05:30

It finally happened. You know, for a while now I'd been wondering what was wrong with me. I have a good job, a decent haircut, an unremarkable odour and a witty sense of humour (just gulp that for a while - this story supports it). There is nothing particularly revolting about me, except perhaps my feet, but I conceal them well. So, I was wondering why this hadn't happened earlier.

So, I was in Mumbai a few weeks earlier, and while leaving home, my grand mother, in her ever-feeble voice, said, "Arjun, tujhyasaaathi ek mulgi sangun geli aahe". Now I had no frigging clue what that meant, so I put up my clueless Maharashtrian-boy-brought-up-in-Bangalore look. My grandmother got the hint rather well... though sometimes she overdoes it - one time recently she even tried telling me how shrikhand was made. I was plain offended. Every Maharashtrian boy worth his modak should know that!

However, this time she was right on the money. So she explained "Arre, laganyasaathi" (for a marriage [to you]). "Dentist aahe. Tichya aaini vicharla, tujhyabaddal." (She's a dentist. Her mother asked about you). Ah!

So I said, "Majhe daat sagale ajun nighale naahi aahet. Nighalyanantar baghuya". (All my teeth haven't popped out yet. Once they do, we'll see). My sisters giggled, my grandmother grimaced. And that was the end of that.

I don't think my grand mother will be 'helpful' again soon!

2007-04-01T05:08:00.000+05:30

An attempt to see if my life is interesting enough to blog:

So, my day literally starts when a friend calls me because he's buying a new bike. A silver Unicorn, no less. He's apparently at the showroom with a loaded bank account, saying he's made up his mind, but probably wanting a final affirmative nod from us that he's not completely insane. All this happens while my roommate and me are planning on getting a late lunch.

In light of this new to-do, we decide to check out the bike first, and then get ourselves treated to lunch! (new bike yaar... treat treat!) On the way, the traffic jam really sucks! I yawn a splendid yawn, turn my head and see the driver to the left of me giving a huger yawn and looking right back at me. At the end of our performance, we both smile. A sort of nod to mutual laze and boredom, perhaps.

The bike rides smoothly on the test-drive, although I'm very unhappy that the salesman gave me such a tiny alley to work on that I only got to third gear. All is good, except the showroom doesn't accept cheques. What a bother! Hmm, we need to find a bank near by. Well, after lunch, dammit. Can't think on an empty stomach. Ah, wanna have sugarcane juice first?

So we go to this place where you get 99 varieties of dosai, and promptly make the wrongest possible choice of dosa. An 18 inch behemoth that tests even the bottomless pits we call our stomachs (well, mine at least. The other two really don't eat that much). We leave almost half the dosa, and walk out with our tummies making nice half moons in the evening light.

So, the to-be-Unicorn-owner departs to handle his finances, we decide to look at some electronics. Me like - Bose headphones! Nearly buy them. Then we look at some cell phones and definitely don't buy them. I realize I need a TV stand just about then, so we go to a mall to find a furniture shop. Now at the mall, I'm swimming in a sea of beautiful faces and bouncy perky well-shaped, erm, eyes. So we don't really find the trolley, and we decide to try the furniture shop opposite. Not before we stop at McDonalds of course. I finally find myself a good stand at the furniture shop, and the to-be-Unicorn owner informs us that he withdrew a whole lot of cash and thus will very soon turn into a Unicorn owner - with the AP govt mandatory helmet receipt et al.

We bring the TV stand home. It goes well with the TV. I get a call from the biggest nut I know, and we go off into encyclopedias of stories. We share some good times. Then I try to think I can throw away something I truly love, and decide I can't do that. But apparently I'm not sure I can keep it either. So things get very messy in my head and outside it, and I'm all of helpless, upset and angry. And then I use that anger to shoo off another friend who might have helped. And she happily gets shooed off too! A little too happily.

So I'm watching FRIENDS because I can't sleep, and suddenly this delicate thing I really don't talk to much pings me because she can't sleep either. Wow, that's a nice omen-like-thing, I think, and I start chatting with her with all the enthusiasm of a first-bencher (no better analogy in my head, sorry). Only, ironically, my chat with her cures her of her insomnia! Wow, a totally hilariously tragic way to end the day.

That's it. I'm done. Only maybe not. It's 5:40 and I STILL CAN'T SLEEP. Wonder what utterly interesting adventures lie in store for me. Sigh... get a life. I need to.

2007-03-13T22:53:00.000+05:30

March 12th, 2007
Hyderabad, India

A new phenomenon is sweeping across the Internet, causing managers a lot of worry and mothers a lot of panic. Its rapidly expanding user base calls it anything from 'status chatting' to 'giving head'. With the infectious nature with which it works, chances are that a loved one is engaged in this very dangerous activity even as you read this.

It's chatting at the next level! Discrete and effective, it involves chatting through the Status Message of popular IM clients usually reserved to indicate the current status and/or disposition of the user:"Oh, I use it mostly for casual chatting, without commitments", says a user who preferred to remain anonymous, "but sometimes I'll stick in a URL or two in there for the heck of it. Sometimes it's one-on-one, but more often than not I'm doing it with multiple partners across different IMs". Is such rampant and seemingly irresponsible behaviour a cause for concern?

Renowned psychologist Atyanta Thinkar attributes this phenomenon to the constant yearning of the mind for exclusivity, while at the same time its need to explore its dark voyeuristic tendencies. He assured us that apart from studies that show the link between status chatting behaviour to lameophoresis, there is really nothing to fear. There are more than a few people who would beg to differ from this point of view, however.

Hari Sadu, a manager in Eyebeem, Hyderabad, described his mounting worry of the number of hours his team has lost to this new hobby. "It's deceptive in the way it takes away a person's time incrementally without him even realizing it!" Eyebeem, like most companies around the world, is taking an aggressive approach to curb this emerging menace. "We are pushing major IM providers to use different ports for status messages and chats so we can effectively block one while letting the other through", says Mr. Sadu. "While communication within most companies is indeed done through IMs and is a productive facility overall, status chatting shows very alarming figures on the productivity scale".

Geeta Sangeeth was involved in a relationship for about a year until she caught her boyfriend cheating on her through status messaging. "We used to chat all the time", she said, "until I realized that he was status messaging someone else while chatting with me". It took Geeta some time to correlate his frequent status message updates with those of her best friend's due to its discrete nature, but once she was sure, sure enough it broke their relationship immediately.

"The real issue here is that the sociopsychological characteristics of this new collaborative behaviour has not concretised in the minds of users", said Dr. Thinkar. "Different people are reacting to it in different ways, and it will take a while before clear boundaries are defined as to what is acceptable and what isn't".

For the more cautious, it is advised to keep away from the phenomenon until its long term effects are fully understood. Staying away is fairly easy by following these simple instructions:

Make sure you uninstall IM clients that allow status messages to be edited. These include most popular IMs including Google and Yahoo.
Use IM clients like GAIM that implement multiple protocols, thus ensuring that they have poor status message support for any one protocol.
For companies, we suggest developing custom IM solutions that do not implement status messages at all.

In the end, the choice is yours! Join one of many Internet revolutions and pamper your mind, or be a non-believer and stay away from what many deem potentially dangerous and destructive. We wish you luck either way.

--Routers, err... Reuters

2007-02-28T22:29:00.000+05:30

In my line of work, I get to correspond every now and then with people from quite a few different places around the world, including those in US, France, Germany and Japan. And the wonderful ways in which they twist English around their own languages is sweet, indeed entertaining.

Like a translated document we received from the national postal service in France - La Poste telling us how they want their shipping labels to look - it had a section which contained stuff on the label that was obviously extremely important to them, so much that they named the section "Mandatory Indispensables". They could just as easily have called it "Put this stuff on the label or we'll kill you first. And then misplace the package!". Then there was correspondence from a Frenchman saying "Here are some examples of manifest where we don't have these informations on each page". Love that plurality switching thing.

Which takes me back to those good old days - trying to learn French at IITK. There was this time our class had a little rendezvous with some Frenchmen, and our lecturer, the nicest lecturer in the world, told us to generally be nice by preparing a question each to ask them. And boy was it one of the most pressured moments of my life. I asked one of them an innocent enough question, "Quelle musique aimez-vous ?" (What music do you like?). He had this "Say whaaat?" expression on his face at first. A couple more attempts and an encouraging yet half embarrassed look from the lecturer finally got the message through to the man. And the resultant surge of emotions and torrent of words it evoked from him as he went on into some deep philosophical monologue about what it means to really love music was met by a bewildered grin from my end while I tried desperately to make sense of even a single word if only I could. Not only did I seem totally unFrench to him, I was probably also constipated and retarded in his eyes. "Thanks for keeping me alive through this, Oh God", I prayed silently, "Never again will I smirk at the less Englowed!"

Ah, those wonderful French classes. A time to unwind, to have fun, to take over two minutes to utter a single sentence and still get a pat on the back for it. "Juh sveee umm... Juh mapppppel ... err... Arjun....? Oui...? Oui! Bon!" There were really three foreign language classes - French, German and Japanese. The Germans were students who wanted to learn mainly to pursue higher education. Serious stuff. In uniform it is rumoured. The French consisted of bored housewives, campus residents who wanted to show off to the home crowd, and hopeless romantics. The Japanese were Anime-loving immature man-child desperadoes. While the Japanese often spoke of Hentai and tentacle-sex in class, the meek and conformist French made jokes about how it is inappropriate to ask a young lady questions from the first chapter like "What is your age?". I cannot comment on the Germans since I dared not venture close.

All in all, good times. Times that flash back every now and then in my head when I have serene conversations with fellow travelers. And then I just have to ramble on and on to someone who wouldn't give a smelly escargot for what I have to say.

2007-02-11T23:55:00.000+05:30

Well, sometimes there's just no one to talk to. Perhaps if I didn't behave like a wise old monkey who knows the answer to life, the universe and everything automagically following a brief scratch-session, I just might have stopped to listen to other people when they tried to help me however they could. Hmm, if I could just remember what they tried to tell me then...

2007-01-02T09:46:00.000+05:30

Force feedback and 29 inches. Hour long phone calls. Reliving the past with someone special. A vegetarian meet up with friends. Illy coffee, a couch, beautiful hair and a smiling waitress. Having a girl puke all over my pants. Twice! A persistent cough and a light fever. Hearing the little one squirm and stretch early in the morning. Messages that just refuse to go international. A spanking new office with patent pending swiveling keyboard stands. Some fried masala peas.

Boy, do I feel alive!

And Barista comes up with the stupidest names...

2006-12-28T11:30:00.000+05:30

For the last time, it's not 'fren'. As in:

"m blessed to have a fren like Peesaravanmuthudoubledeckerbus!"
"bas tu hi to meri sacchi fren hai!"

It gets worse! They have somehow formulated modifiers around the contorted excuse for a word. Like:

"just hanging out with frens."
"I'm a simpal gal who cherishes frenship."

It's FRIEND, for crying out loud! If you think I'm overreacting, let me leave you with a gruesome thought. What if this popular TV series was produced in India???

Now you're finally scared, aren't you?

2006-12-11T02:58:00.000+05:30

"And nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain..."
- that guy who thought he was the entire world, Axl Rose.

2006-12-10T20:46:00.000+05:30

Sometimes the universe decides to give you a break. It actually conspires for you for a change. Makes things work out. You win a lottery even though it isn't much. Those at loggerheads stop locking horns with you and get comfortable over a couch, virtual as it may be. Your SMS finally gets through after just one pending status! And your heart swells with pride when someone you hold close achieves.

It just had to start with that burger joint playing 'Golden Slumbers'. Perfect!

2006-12-09T22:34:00.000+05:30

Remember when I told you that you deserved better? Well, I knew what I was talking about, but now I've just gone and outdone myself.

I can't simply be like this. This is just plain unacceptable. But till I cnange, I'm sorry.

(No comments expected or encouraged...)

2006-12-05T16:44:00.000+05:30

Just WHY is my door number 8-2-310/3/A/3? I mean which kind of retarded 8086 endowed official decided on this contorted overdose of numerology? Why does God intend me to consult my cell phone whenever I needed to recall my permanent address, attracting suspicious stares from whoever requests it. Why do I have to repeat my address a minimum of five times to every guest kind enough to visit at least once? And why is the landlord's daughter so young?

If someone explains what 8-2-310/3/A/3 is to me, you entitle yourself to a nice fat treat from me. That, or you get an immediate admission into CBI!

2006-11-27T14:51:00.000+05:30

Ok, so I changed the ghastly template to make way for an even ghastlier one. In other news...

Shopped for pendants for the first time. All alone! it was amusing how the experience was all of interesting: "Natural pearls come only in these 3 colours", boring: "Yes, this might look the same as the first, but it is more casual; it's for daily wear!", ego-boosting: "These are all real diamonds, sir. 18K." and mercilessly ego-shattering: "Oh nooo, you don't want to look at these. They are all in the higher price ranges...", at the same time. At the end of it all, I was left with a cheap little piece about the size of a shriveled pea. At least I gained some arbitrary jewelery knowledge - for instance, they add 15% to the weight for wastage! Wastage??? Dude, if you don't want to waste, why don't you be more frigging careful? Stop weeding before work!
A bunch of us went to a mall, bought a bunch of clothes, and managed to buy them in such a way as to make sure our individual bills were small enough to avail of absolutely no holiday offers whatsoever.! A few minutes later, we came back to buy a couple of undies, and bam! We win two passes to a Euphoria concert. Moral of the story: Ensuring that your underwear is fresh and clean is very lucky, if getting gay concert tickets can be considered so.
Finally, the fast food joint Chicking really really sucks. Well, the burgers ain't too bad, and the chicken is quite crispy and KFC-like. But come on, what's with the stupid name? Sounds like something eve-teasers would use on a typically productive day.
Oh, happy birthday, little one!

2006-11-14T13:47:00.000+05:30

I've been to my share of eateries over the years, more so after my recent shift to a city with no obscurely linked relatives' homes to gate crash into. The mundane exercise each night, initiated by a lazy roommate who goes, "So, what do we do for dinner tonight?" in quite the Disney's Jungle Book Vulture kind of way, leaving the NP-Complete (little computer humour there...) problem of finding a satisfactory restaurant each and every night solely to me, has resulted in me getting familiar with absolutely all eateries in the locality, and most even beyond. My apologies for that mammoth of a sentence.

Anyway, as I was saying, I've had my share of eateries. Cute word, isn't it - eateries? But I digress... so, of all the places affordable (barely) for your average daily dinner, the one place I want to go into again and again is this tiny little Subway that's a convenient two kms away from our home. Initially drawn to it because of one disturbing detail on the results of my then recent medical checkup, I now like to go there simply because of the interesting blend of people it draws in. Of course, I admit one can see a similar blend on any of the newer trendy hangouts these days, but then again everywhere else they generally talk, laugh, have a good time. Nothing worth observing. At Subway, they are more themselves, lost in thought, as I am, lost in mine.

There was this really innocent fairy-princess kind of girl with a strange tongue (as in language, you pervert). Spotless skin, face like a doll, her words sounded quite like a casual medley of instruments carried by a summer breeze. Looking down at the way she looked half smiling at her toes as her male accomplice made all the moves, I couldn't help but let my mind be drawn to romance once again. Rather than check her out, I instead simply wished her, and if she wanted, the lucky freak who was with her but so did not deserve her, all happiness deserved.

Then there was this Oriental student, bespectacled, hair falling over her face, trying very hard to look lost in a book and in her white PDA, which I admit, was what I was drawn to before its owner. Feverishly concentrating on her reading and occasionally keying in frantic bursts on her PDA, she received more than one smile from me. It's just as well that she was too busy lost in her world to notice. A good half hour passed, and as I picked up my tray to leave, I noticed she had but gone through a mere dozen pages in her book. Perhaps she found English difficult, perhaps she had too much else on her mind, perhaps she was alone. Perhaps.

Then there were the bogged-down-with-life atomic families, the rich irresponsible software engineers, the confident aunties, the full-of-promise couples. Each with their own ideas and worries, their own opinions and insecurities, all bottled up inside them, not even let out in the small confines of the Subway outlet.

And then there was the foggy spectacled (yes, they are still foggy) self-declared psychiatrist with only an average wiener. The 6-inch sub, I'd call it. Hehe...

2006-11-07T17:18:00.000+05:30

It finally happened. Bangalore is now ಬೆಂಗಳೂರು (Bengalūru) . The proposal put forth by U. R. Ananthamurthy was finally implemented on November 1st, 2006. How does that make millions of Pradesh-loving citizens feel? Very patriotic indeed! What do the millions of Pradesh-loving citizens think of this proposal? They don't...

U. R. Ananthamurthy, I. M. Very Annoyed!

2006-10-30T11:05:00.000+05:30

I thought this was cute. I'm sure at least half a dozen people I know will disagree. But, keeping up with my scandalous reputation, here it goes.

On checking out Aparajita's Orkut profile:

Arjun > Sneha > Aparajita

Tee hee hee!

Yeah yeah, Sneha or Appu, if you want me to remove this post, I will. Party poopers...

2006-10-26T10:20:00.000+05:30

The first bug I resolved at Amazon - didn't really do anything, rather showed the concerned party that nothing could be done! Just when I stretched my hand to pat myself on my back, I received the icing on the cake via email:
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Why did it take nearly 3 months for you to get to this ticket? This is unacceptable. The response time on this ticket is ridiculous.

XXX
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Hahaha!
No offence, XXX, but 3 months back I was begging my thesis superviser to let me go! Ahh, memories... :)
Now, me's gonna solve me some tickets. Bring 'em my way. Bring on the rants!

2006-10-17T10:57:00.000+05:30

"Free is all you gotta be..."
Ah! A wonderful day today, isn't it? Did some good work last night. And the day is bright, without being unnecessarily hot. Just about right. One of those days.

"Dream dreams no one else can see..."
Q. Hello, Amjad, yaar... cab 9 baje bulaya tha. 9:10 baje hain. Kidhar hai?
A. Haan sir, abhi 10 minute me ayega.

"Sometimes ya wanna run away..."
Oh well, just some standing around in the middle of the road looking like an idiot with auto drivers driving by very slowly in hopes of getting a ride for a while. No biggie. Just hum the song louder in your head. Simple!

"But you never know what might be coming round your way"
Q. Hello, Amjad. 9:35 baje hain...
A. Haan Sir, woh cab Jubilee Hills mein traffic jam me fasa hai. Abhi 2 minute me pahunchega.
Q. Traffic jam in Jubilee Hills? Yeah, right! Arrrgh!

"On a day like today, the whole world can change"
Well now it's getting to me. Hmm... but it's not the cab. It's something else. I wonder what?
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...
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Prrrfffffffft!

Haha, yeah. I'm back, baby.

On a day like today
The whole world could change
The suns gonna shine
Shine thru the rain
On a day like today
You never wanna see the sun go down
You never wanna see the sun go down!

2006-10-04T13:57:00.000+05:30

A great white ox stampeding down in parallel. I glance at it, and I wonder how I'm managing to keep up with the terrific pace. I look down and realize of course that I'm sitting on my friend's back (let's refer to him as Tez, for reasons you will know soon enough), who's rampaging on all fours himself. In order to either bring the bull down or beat it in a race, Tez rams into the bull sideways a couple of times but the bull does not relent. I am worried for Tez, because he's just gotten stitches on his head and one of the ox's hooked horns is dangerously close. My fears are justified soon enough, with the ox lightly etching its horns onto Tez's head, starting a tiny spurt of blood. I worry, but we must win the race! Or bring the ox down! Or something like that. Anyway, Tez runs harder than ever, and the ox gets more and more agressive, burying the horn deeper and deeper into Tez's head, eventually tearing the skin and perhaps the skull. The scene then fades out thankfully. The next moment, Tez and me are talking post-race or post-rampage or whatever. Apparently I made him do what he did, and he's not too happy about having his hair soaked in blood. I feel terribly guilty now, because I do really care for him, and want to do something about it. So we go to a doctor, and get him restitched. Only for God-Knows-Why I'm doing the stitching myself. A short lapse of time, and he's in a much better state. And the alarm rings!

And I'm not having biryani from that place near my apartment EVER AGAIN!

2006-10-03T10:17:00.000+05:30

A few adjustments were made to accommodate friends travelling together, and hence my seat, number 10, was already taken. Some chaos followed, and when the dust cleared I was put into the only remaining seat, right next to a girl who was fast asleep. I thanked God briefly for not giving me the 40 year old pot-bellied man he gave me the last time I travelled alone, before I tucked my luggage away and sat down, humming songs from 'Hum Tum' to get into the mood.

The journey started off rather sweetly. The girl's head dropped on my shoulders and she apologized before shifting to another position. Ahh, how sweet our lady is, I thought. Plently of time to talk tomorrow morning, let the poor girl sleep now. Apparently she didn't think anything on similar lines. Our lady is not a sound sleeper, and her constant shifting and turning kept me shifting and turning as much. But the really scary part was that everytime the bus jerked on the road, our lady would let out a soft moan, which sounded rather scandalous and scared the shit out of me. I looked around to see if the other passengers could hear her, but apparently God had reserved this treat only for me. I tried to exercise my telekinetic muscles to make the bus go slowly, but the driver was probably several levels higher than me and I gave up soon.

As the night went on, her right shoulder seemed to get heavier and heavier, and everytime she shifted on my side, I would push her back to her side, upon which she would emit that strange moan again. This happened quite a few times throughout the night, and by about half the journey I had shifted to humming 'Norwegian Wood' instead. Boy, she really had me!

Come early morning, I was woken up (yet again) when the attendant yanked my blanket off of me and did the same for the damsel who caused me a lot of distress. I turned to my left to see a mess of matted hair covering a face that I realized for the first time that I had never really gotten to see clearly the night before. She cleared that hair away, revealing a face that condemned the world for troubling her by waking her up so early in the morning on an uncomfortable bus. That face, which was the best personification of about a dozen negative emotions I have seen in a while, remained locked in that contorted state till I finally reached my stop. I picked up my luggage calmly and marched down, but my shadow must have leaped out the window instead.

In closing, if that 40 year old dude is reading this, I would like to apologize. I really shouldn't have cursed you or my luck when I sat next to you. In fact, when are you travelling next?

2006-09-21T10:44:00.000+05:30

It's been a while. But then, I've been enjoying another chapter of my rather fortunate life. A few wonderful things about it:

The drivers, the localites, the policemen - they all complain about how painful the traffic in Hyderabad is getting lately. But as for me, I'm from Bangalore! To me, the word 'traffic' has a much more chaotic and frustrating image. As a consequence, the cab rides to work are a breeze.
I found a cute little place in Banjara Hills, one of the posh(est) areas of Hyderabad. Well, the place sucks as far as daily amenities go, but then I love the look I get from people when they hear it. Hey, and Hyderabad Central ain't too far away.
I have a brand new DELL Latitude 620! I'm taking good care of it, so that it has Longitude as well. Haha. There, my quota of bad jokes is up for today.
I get a huge salary the first couple of months. I'm talking HUGE! Well, huge for the 5k p.m. impoverished grad student that I was, anyway.
Team lunches. They say they will get rather boring in a couple of months, but right now, it's like getting free treats (atleast) once a week!
Did I mention all that money???
An ATM card! I've been dying to insert those fiesty little things into ATMs and press some buttons. Withdraw something, maybe check my balance just for the fun of it.
Bangalore, Chennai, Mumbai - all less than 12 hours away.
Nice geeky crowd at work. I feel at home, or at IITK anyway.
Oh, and the brand new wardrobe that comes alongwith a new job. Lookin' quite 'da man'. Of course, this is facilitated by the... oh yes, you got it. THE MONEY!

But really, one of the things I look forward to every day is speaking to people I care for. That's what keeps us going. It's sharing my happiness with them that makes the fire of my excitement a steady warm ember.

2006-07-19T15:56:00.000+05:30

I've packed so many cartons for friends that they have advised me to consider joining the courier business. I've made up my mind a million times to throw away all those useless bills, letters and gifts, and then cheated myself by sneaking them into gaps that the other luggage wouldn't care too much about. Friends back home keep asking when I'll be back. My friends here are buying rations and borrowing electric kettles to cook for ourselves as a last attempt to do something fun. Ads for selling our computers have gone out on the newsgroup. Everyone tells me to write a last comic strip or two before I leave. Before I leave, huh? I'm leaving soon, and it's just starting to hit me!

Yesterday was particularly eventful. We realized we had to shift immediately, and had to pay a good amount to do so. Getting a gate pass for a friend's luggage turned into a unfruitful bureaucratic adventure. I found out that a company I was eyeing just decided to schedule their 7th technical interview with me! We sat, together yet alone, the two of us, realizing that the endless chatter and movie sound effects would not strike the walls of my room anymore.

And then it rained. Heavily. Too darn poetic, but it worked for me. Envigourated and glistening fresh in the rain, the grass seemed greener on the other side!

2006-07-06T23:23:00.000+05:30

We finally met. Talk about bad karma. She was just as I thought she would be. I apparently wasn't. Oh well... no free silver jewellery for me!

2006-07-01T00:41:00.000+05:30

People cried, "Come back, we really loved you! And while you're at it, make love to me!"

They said, "Man, if there was one thing I looked forward to reading every day, it was like your blog, man! You're like the best, man! Make love to me!"

Some even said, "You can't write for nuts, but please... make love to me!"

South Park's Randy Marsh can eat his heart out! And knowing the crazed creators of the series, he just might!

Well, God knows I'm back. So, bring on the love...